A PASSAGE NOT YET TAKEN: Learning to trust 24/7 -- The faithful one? -- My mirror, my prison -- What I believe -- Confessions of a "Sunday morning Christian" -- A life changed in ten seconds -- The hypocrisy trap -- More than a middle sister -- We all make mistakes-mine was being normal -- Out of the darkness, into his light -- AN UNEXPECTED DISCOVERY: The best and worst of becoming a man -- Why me, God? -- Under fire -- Reversing the roles -- From my perspective -- Growing up -- Searching for beauty -- True treasure -- A lesson from the geese -- In His eyes -- A DEAD END: I went to Columbine High School -- My Father's forgiveness -- For Ben Marshall -- I just couldn't say no -- Sorrow to joy -- A total life change -- Surviving depression -- Big dreams & hard lessons -- My struggle with purity -- The scent of God -- The Lord is close to the brokenhearted -- A MAJOR INTERSECTION: God, use me -- Striving for servanthood -- An open mind -- God's love found in Trinidad -- Scars -- Power in weakness -- Finding a mission -- Someone's watching -- Showers of blessings -- A PLACE TO REST: The road to faith -- Coming full circle -- Blocks to Ashley's -- When the rooster crows -- The last Thanksgiving -- Out of my control -- Where's the good in that? -- New sight -- Diary of an anorexic -- Shaken and inflamed -- Final thoughts.